INSIDE LELIEL ========== compiled by Maiji/Mary Huang The Ragbag @ http://humangray.com/rag DISCLAIMER I don't own Neon Genesis Evangelion! You are free to use the information provided in this transcript as inspiration/reference for your own projects. However, please do respect the fact that I did take the time to write down and type up everything, so if you found The Ragbag a useful resource, a credit and link would be very much appreciated! ========== WHAT IS THIS? This is the scene from Neon Genesis Evangelion Episode 16 (Unto Sickness ... and Death - Splitting of the Breast), when unit 01 has been absorbed into the 12th angel, Leliel. This transcription goes from the beginning of the "conversation" to the point right before he "sees" his mother and Unit 01 berserks and splits Leliel open. ========== Shinji: Who's that? Who? ShinjiČ: Who? Shinji Ikari. Shinji: But ... that's me. ShinjiČ: I am you. This self incorporates another self. This self has always been composed of two selves. Shinji: Two? ShinjiČ: Yes. the self which is observed and the self which observes itself. To expound, there is the Shinji Ikari that exists in your mind, the Shinji Ikari in Misato Katsuragi's mind, the Shinji Ikari in Asuka Soryuu's mind, the Shinji Ikari in Rei Ayanami's mind, and the Shinji Ikari in Gendo Ikari's mind. All are different Shinji Ikaris but each of them is a true Shinji Ikari. What you fear is the Shinji Ikaris who exist in the minds of others. Shinji: I'm just afraid of being hated. ShinjiČ: You are afraid of being hurt. Shinji: B-but who is bad? ShinjiČ: Father is. The father who deserted us. Shinji: I'm the one who's bad! - flashback - Asuka: There you go again! You're always apologizing! do you really think it's your fault? Shinji: I'm worthless. Misato: No. You just believe that you are worthless, Shinji. (Rei slapping Shinji) Rei: Don't you trust your own father? Shinji: I thought I hated my father, but ... now I'm not sure. Gendo: That was good work, Shinji. Shinji: My father called me by name! I-I was praised by my father! ShinjiČ: Will you live the rest of your life regurgitating and redigesting those few pleasant memories? Shinji: If I trust their words, it's enough! Enough to keep me alive! ShinjiČ: Even though you know you're deceiving yourself? Shinji: Everybody does it. That's how everyone survives. ShinjiČ: No, I accept that you are capable of initiating change within yourself, you will be unable to continue. Shinji: This world is filled with too much pain and suffering to go on. ShinjiČ: For example, you can't swim. Shinji: Humans aren't made to float. ShinjiČ: This is self-deception. Shinji: I don't care what you want to call it! ShinjiČ: You have been shutting your eyes and covering your ears, making yourself blind and deaf to that which you wish to avoid. - flashback - (Touji punching Shinji) Kensuke: His sister was injured during the incident. Misato: Who cares what the others say? Shinji: Ugh ... Gendo: Leave! Shinji: No! I don't want to hear this! ShinjiČ: See? You're running away from the reality again. No one can justify their existence by linking their happiest moments into a kind of rosary. In particular, I cannot ... (ShinjiČ's voice echoes and fades away, and a ringing sound becomes louder and louder) Shinji: What's wrong with doing something I want to do?? WHY WON'T YOU LEAVE ME ALONE?? - break (continuation after exterior events) - (scenes from the past) Shinji: Father ... Don't you want me? FATHER!!! ShinjiČ: It was yourself that you ran away from. (flashes of articles and headlines - yeah, I know it's amazing how I caught them all :p the capitalization here may be incorrect.) [Research group has returned] [Second Impact is ...] [Japanese DNA Society's Crystalline DNA Theory] [The Dark Side of the UN - Corruption in Secret Organization!] [Secret UN Organization - Bio-medicine's Scientific Sanctuary] [The AEL - What is the Secret of the Dead Sea Scrolls? Artificial Evolution Laboratory] [University Factions in Dispute] [Cozy relationship with some corporations] Year 2004 [Gene manipulation?] [Terrifying Bio-Hazard!] [Technology to Invade the Arena of ...] [Terror!] [One reported dead] [Death] [... for ... ... research ... Yui Ikari, age 27, became the victim of ... ... incompetence in the laboratory ...] [Careless Miss?] [Human Experimentation? Human existence for years ... ... human negligence ... DNA information] [Negligence] [Biological Information] [Out of Control] [Former co-researcher ...] [Bribe!] [Gendo Ikari is sued ...] [Genom biology] [Supreme court verdict of innocence for ...] [Lack of morals ...] [Technology of god] male voice: That's right! He may be guilty of killing his own wife! male voiceČ: He killed his own wife! Shinji: No! Mother was ... smiling. - flashback - Misato: Shinji ... You did something very important today. Gendo: Shinji. You must not run away. Misato: You've got to do your best. Shinji: I hate this place ... I hate this loneliness.